Somedays

Those days when you wake up and you hate the sunshine outside, you don’t like people with happy faces and chirpy talks. You don’t want to open your mouth or even move your finger and look at the wall or your laptop blank and lost .Days when Keep Calm posters don’t work on you , neither that cup of coffee or green tea in a silent corner nor your favorite book.

When Chandler Bing’s sarcasm isn’t that amusing and you really don’t want to know how Barney stays awesome. Your top-drawer collection of Music to escape this wordily wise world does not take you in trance and that blueberry muffin does not taste good. When your identity is the pain and you look for anonymity.

You slump yourself on the bed and nothing makes you feel better, you don’t feel anxious about anything, there are no questions and you don’t want to know the answers .The pragmatic populace calls it depression but I don’t understand what depression is all about but I do understand that this is when HOPE has found a new place to rent and you are abandoned for good .This is when you are dying in the moment, your past is not affecting you and Future in not even in the oven.

So now that you are dying and you are not dead yet that means some part of you is still living and this part of yours, Preserve it. It is good to be distracted if not focused because still you are attracted to something but being distant is not a salubrious concoction .These days are those ‘Somedays’ of our lives when we get apologetic of where we are and how life is happening to us. As we grew older we realized it is a relative world and the more we digested it, we also in our brooding corners compared everything and sadly we compared our feelings too. Look at a child near you, when he is happy eating a chocolate he is just happy, that is an independent state devoid of relativity.

Who saves us from these ‘Somedays’? We do, by ourselves .We pick ourselves from the most uneasy thought to a neutral one and from there to a sober one and gradually the smile is back. Some do it with oversleeping; some  by talking to strangers; some go for long showers listening to the force of water on their bodies  which silences the noise inside and others , the true optimists  , they still go looking for their tea kettle , but maybe this time Green instead of Black is the flavor which will play the trick.